chroma ☆ vinniko

[dms]

[ we'll get a shitpost later ]

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[allomantic]

[she shakes her head.]

Whatever was going on... It was not your fault.

[dms]

I know, but it doesn't change what I said, or that it shouldn't have been said it at all. I like to think you're my friend, too, you know? And that's not how I treat my friends.

[allomantic]

Well... I get the feeling that it wasn't you saying those things.

[dms]

Maybe. I just don't want to assume that everyone thinks so. If someone was hurt by what I said, that's not just going away because it was some curse or whatever.

[allomantic]

Then they should be angry at whoever cursed you, I would think.

[dms]

[ ...a soft laugh. ]

You really are the pragmatic type, aren't you? Thanks, Vinniko.

[allomantic]

I'm not certain why you're thanking me for telling the truth...

[dms]

Because not everyone is going to see it that way, but I appreciate it, anyway. And... honesty means a lot to me.

So thank you.

[allomantic]

[frowning a little.]

Has anyone been giving you a hard time?

[dms]

[ waves a hand. ]

Don't worry about it. I'll sort it out.

[allomantic]

That isn't a no...

[dms]

Ahaha, well... I think it's more like I'm getting in my own head about it? I don't know.

[allomantic]

[tilting her head]

How so?

[dms]

Because... I was saying what I believed at the time, but a lot of it was things that I'd never dream of saying.
[ he chews on his lip for a moment. ]

I... I'm so used to saying what people want to hear, just so I won't upset anyone, and sometimes I deliberately said what would upset someone the most. So it just really freaks me out, I guess.

[allomantic]

[...]

You shouldn't do that normally.

[dms]

[ ..........he looks away. ]

Yeah, maybe not.

[allomantic]

I think you would probably be happier if you said the things you wanted to. I have trouble imagining they would be cruel.

[dms]

...Someone's told me something like that before, but... I don't know. I don't like making people upset for any reason, and I don't want anyone to hate me, either.

[allomantic]

What kinds of things do you normally think that would make someone hate you if you were to say them?

[dms]

Ahhhh, I don't know! That's why I said I was just getting in my own head!

[allomantic]

Are you saying that because it's actually true...

[dms]

[ drops his head into his hands. ]

I know what I just said gave you every reason to doubt me, but yes, it's the truth.

[allomantic]

Alright...

[she sounds like she believes him, at least.]

I would prefer to hear the truth from you moving forward, too.

[dms]

[ he's quiet for a long moment, and then he nods slowly. ]

Yeah. Yeah, I'll try.

[allomantic]

It is appreciated.