dms | chroma ☆ vinniko

That's a relief. I got a little worried about them getting stuck like that!

...And yeah, I'm fine. [ ... ] Um. Sorry about how I acted before. About your friend. He sounded like a good guy.

[she shakes her head.]

Whatever was going on... It was not your fault.

I know, but it doesn't change what I said, or that it shouldn't have been said it at all. I like to think you're my friend, too, you know? And that's not how I treat my friends.

Well... I get the feeling that it wasn't you saying those things.

Maybe. I just don't want to assume that everyone thinks so. If someone was hurt by what I said, that's not just going away because it was some curse or whatever.

Then they should be angry at whoever cursed you, I would think.

[ ...a soft laugh. ]

You really are the pragmatic type, aren't you? Thanks, Vinniko.

I'm not certain why you're thanking me for telling the truth...

Because not everyone is going to see it that way, but I appreciate it, anyway. And... honesty means a lot to me.

So thank you.

[frowning a little.]

Has anyone been giving you a hard time?

[ waves a hand. ]

Don't worry about it. I'll sort it out.

That isn't a no...

Ahaha, well... I think it's more like I'm getting in my own head about it? I don't know.

[tilting her head]

How so?

Because... I was saying what I believed at the time, but a lot of it was things that I'd never dream of saying.
[ he chews on his lip for a moment. ]

I... I'm so used to saying what people want to hear, just so I won't upset anyone, and sometimes I deliberately said what would upset someone the most. So it just really freaks me out, I guess.

[...]

You shouldn't do that normally.

[ ..........he looks away. ]

Yeah, maybe not.

I think you would probably be happier if you said the things you wanted to. I have trouble imagining they would be cruel.

...Someone's told me something like that before, but... I don't know. I don't like making people upset for any reason, and I don't want anyone to hate me, either.

What kinds of things do you normally think that would make someone hate you if you were to say them?

Ahhhh, I don't know! That's why I said I was just getting in my own head!

Are you saying that because it's actually true...

[ drops his head into his hands. ]

I know what I just said gave you every reason to doubt me, but yes, it's the truth.

Alright...

[she sounds like she believes him, at least.]

I would prefer to hear the truth from you moving forward, too.

[ he's quiet for a long moment, and then he nods slowly. ]

Yeah. Yeah, I'll try.

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